November
1, 2004
Revival
& Reformation Testimony
by Yolanda Palmer (Ullanda Innocent-Palmer)
“And they overcame him by the
blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony: and they loved not their
lives unto death.” Rev. 12:11
”No
repentance is genuine that does not work reformation. The righteousness of
Christ is not a cloak to cover unconfessed and unforsaken sin; it is a
principle of life that transforms the character and controls the conduct.
Holiness is wholeness for God; it is the entire surrender of heart and life to
the indwelling of the principles of heaven.”
DA 555
My
Brothers and Sisters In Christ,
I would like to take this opportunity to share with you the revival and reformation that has taken place in my life. I am so happy in Jesus that I am compelled to share what He has done. This is my re-conversion experience in which I have been recently blessed with a new found love for Jesus Christ. I feel like there is a fire shut up in my bones and I can't stop testifying daily what the Lord has done in and for me. The Lord has had me fasting and praying for the outpouring of His Holy Spirit so that His power can have full sway in my life.
Beginning
in August 2004, I took a spiritual inventory and I had to admit that I’d lost
my “first love.” My joy in the Lord was
drowning in the sea of Laodicean lukewarmness.
I felt spiritually dead.
Something was wrong. I know that
feelings, in and of themselves, are an unreliable gauge of a person’s
spirituality, but I knew deep down that something was missing. And so the Holy Spirit started me into a
consistent, daily study of the Scriptures and also led me to the messages of
counsel through Testimonies to the Church, and Last Day Events. Today I can testify that the Holy Spirit's
power to transform our nature into a Christ-like character is real! Praise His mighty name!
Subsequently, I received confirmation that God’s Spirit had taken hold of my
life in a way I have never experienced before. I was given the privilege to
sing for the Net 2004 crusade with Walter Pearson. While in my hotel room I was impressed to earnestly pray and
repent of my sins so the Holy Spirit would minister to the people in the music
I was to sing that Sunday evening. God
answered my prayers and the Holy Spirit moved mightily so much so that I
finished the song shaking and in tears.
After the song, “Sinner Man,” had finished, the pastor who helped me
down from the stage kept repeating aloud, "Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah!!!” And he continued with these words as he
took the microphone from me. He could not stop saying, “Hallelujah!” Also, the Praise Team leader with one hand
raised heavenward embraced me with the other as she too kept repeating the same
words of praise to our AWESOME GOD IN HEAVEN!
Hallelujah! Glory to God for
what He was able to accomplish through a filthy, wretched sinner like me. I can
only say, “Hallelujah to the Lamb!!!”
This experience has taught me that the Lord wants to use His people so that He
can be the one who is given the praise for His goodness to us who profess His
name on the earth. Through His people He shines the light of His love upon our
pathway so that we may be used of Him to lead others to Him as well. He tells us to search for Him and we will
find Him when we have searched for Him with all our hearts. I am so happy that He is near to us and
loves us so much.
He has truly changed my life also in the way I dress now. I was living in
spiritual adultery with my gods of fashion.
Now I look to the Lord for the attire He would have me wear to His glory
wherever He sends me to minister. At
the program for Net 2004 He took charge of my wardrobe. Normally I would wear a beautiful, striking,
expensive, knee-length suit (which I thought was fairly modest), and have my
face all made up to look as glamorous as possible, comb my hair to suit the
styles of today—all done in order that people could tell me how lovely I
looked. I thought this was how I was to
present myself as I ministered for the Lord before His people. But God led me to read the book, Last Day
Events, and He showed me that somehow I had slipped back to my gods of
fashion.
With the
amazing revival and reformation that God has wrought in my life, now I no
longer wear what I desire to wear but, rather, I prayerfully look to Him. And so for the Net 2004 program the Holy
Spirit had me to wear a long simple black skirt and a simple cream top and
jacket that covered me totally. Except
for using the translucent powder that I was asked to wear so the camera
wouldn't show a glare on my face, I was impressed to ask the makeup artist not
to put any other makeup on my face (lipstick, eye shadow, blush, etc.). The Lord also impressed me to put my hair up
in a simple style that would not draw attention to me. I am amazed at what He has done in me and
for me. It is such a joy to walk in His
will because I know it is pleasing to Him and He can now shine through me and
receive all the glory.
I just
can't stop praising the Lord! He has
totally and completely convicted me about the health message as being the right
arm of the Three Angels’ Message, and shown me the relationship of dress reform
as it pertains to health, both physical and spiritual. No wonder EGW received her visions of health
and dress reform at the same time. The
Lord blessed me to REPENT! AND BUY OF HIM GOLD TRIED IN THE FIRE. Now I see more clearly my role as an SDA
Christian to put into practice these truths from the Bible and the
Testimonies. What a blessing it is to
truly dress modestly, removing my robe of worldliness and putting on Christ's
robe of righteousness.
The Holy
Spirit took me into my dressing closet and showed me what was acceptable and
what needed to be discarded. From my
closet God removed all my knee-length skirts, my pants (in keeping with the
Bible instruction for a woman not to wear “that which pertaineth to a man.”
Deut 22.5; Testimonies vol. 1, pp. 421, 457-9). Also, He showed me to put away all my sleeveless sweaters and
dresses, and my high, high-heel shoes, all of which are unhealthy and immodest
for me to wear as an SDA woman who professes godliness.
My
closet was left almost bare. But if
that is what it takes to save me, then praise the Lord! The fashion industry can no longer entice me
according to its dictates. It was
Christ who suffered and shed His precious blood for my sins and He desires full
reign over my entire being. I must
decrease and Christ must increase… I
Thank God for the blood! The process of
true sanctification has begun anew as with fasting and watching unto prayer I
wait by faith for the outpouring of the Early and Latter Rain.
What was
I to do with my discarded immodest, fancy wardrobe? God instructed me not to give (or sell) them to my dear sisters
in the Lord, but to give them back to its rightful owner, “the world.” When tempted He says: “submit… therefore to
God, resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”
The Holy
Spirit also impressed me to go throughout our home, to remove all my gods of
display that I used so lavishly in my decor. While walking into each room I
prayed for the blood of Jesus to cleanse and remove every unholy
influence. This home belongs to God and
I knew He wanted me to remove my gods of display. I had so many fancy pillows on my sofa you couldn't sit comfortably
without moving them aside.
Consequently, many things will be sold and used for the Lord’s work such
as worldly paintings, statues, fancy beaded feathered lamps, pillows and other
items which had caused me to stumble over my pride of worldly treasures.
Before my revival and reformation experience, I found myself lamenting over the Sabbath service saying it was so dead. But the sweet Holy Spirit led me to realize that the service was not dead—I was! He then showed me more of the “SECRET SINS” that had crept in causing me to lose my FIRST LOVE and preventing me from entering into the joy of the Lord. God then showed me what other sins I was guilty of and I almost cried when I found out what they were. I had not realized that my first love had become The Bachelor, the Oprah Show and the Home & Garden TV program. I saw very little fault in watching them. But truth be told, while I never missed watching The Bachelor every Wednesday and the Oprah Show every weekday, I found myself missing prayer meeting—regularly; and everything had to come to a halt when Oprah was on. Almost nothing could stop me from rushing home to make sure I was able to watch Oprah daily. It was like an addiction-- I had to have it! I know for sure, without a doubt, that the Lord loves Oprah and all her talented staff very much as He does all His children; and yes, I am sure that God wants my home to look neat and attractive-- but somehow all these things had come to consume almost all my time and affection. Because of all the good that I saw the Lord doing through Miss Winfrey on National television, I, along with countless millions, have come to love her like a sister. But it is because I love Jesus much more than Oprah that I have had to face the truth and repent. He reminded me that His coming is near, even at the door and in this time of earth’s history I needed “to make my calling an election sure.” I can by His grace live above the world, renouncing all sinful pleasure-- ”Be not conformed to this world nor the things of the world but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind that ye may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."
Then God
took me a step further… All worldly activity for the purpose of pleasure
seeking, which I once enjoyed, God asked me to cease from (such as Disney
World, Universal Studios, watching competitive sports games (Lakers’
basketball, or football etc), because I would get so excited when watching
these games with Shaquille O’Neal, and God forbid if Shaq (the number one
player in the world of basketball) were to walk into a room where I could get a
quick glimpse at him up close. What
vanity he would feel to see me making a fool of myself.
Well,
speaking of vanity, God reminded me that I too had changed my name to receive
the praise and adoration of men when I adopted a new name, Ullanda, as my stage
name as an Atlantic recording artist in my secular singing career. God humbled me to return to the name I was
given at birth, Yolanda. [On worldly
pleasures please see EGW references including COL 54; Ev 695-6 (1883); Ms 4,
1898]
Schubert,
my husband, is amazed at the change and so happy for me in Jesus. Together, by
God's amazing grace, we, like Daniel, have purposed never again to eat of the
king's table (the world and all it’s sinful pleasures). Gifted with the Holy Spirit’s presence, we
are determined to fight the good fight of faith and help finish the work by
blowing the trumpet of the three angels’ messages. It is my earnest prayer and only desire to say as did Christ,
“The prince of this world cometh and hath found nothing in me!” When we repent and return to our “First
Love,” Jesus Christ and Him crucified, the promise is: “To him that overcometh
will I give to eat of the tree of life, which is in the midst of the paradise
of God.”
“Take
heed to yourselves lest at any time your hearts be overcharged with surfeiting,
and drunkenness, and cares of this life, and so that they come upon you
unawares. For as a snare shall it come
on all them that dwell on the face of the whole earth. Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye
may be accounted worthy to escape all things that shall come to pass and to
stand before the Son of man.” (Luke
21.34-36)
This is my story. Praise the name of the Lord!
Come Thou Lord Jesus!
Yolanda Palmer